As a bombu Buddhist, I have attained nothing that will get me closer to supreme awakening. How can I? I am an ordinary earthly being, proud of so many things and pathetic in so many other ways that compound karmic consequences exponentially. What does all this mean anyway? Where would I be now if I had entered the stream and had a modicum of spiritual accomplishment?
To appreciate and value others is what I've learned from other members of my sangha. Sometimes, it can be hard for bombus to feel things deep in the heart and so rather than be moved by so many raw and gut wrenching feelings it is easier to guard ones feelings by activity and avoidance. And so what is appreciated then? I would hazard a guess and that what Amida appreciates is unfathomable and therefore includes both the painful existence of our fragile life and also the flourishing of human activity that brings us comfort.
In the past week, I've spent most of the time sitting and talking to other members of the Order, listening to what others have been doing as well as utterances of appreciation. In my mind, this simple act of listening and appreciation is what bombus value and regard with utmost respect: the connection and fellow feeling, the grace that is bestowed on us and the ordinary fears and frustrations.