Am 33 and a half weeks pregnant. At the scan earlier this week we saw her yawn while stretching her hand and touching the placenta that is in the front of the stomach. How extraordinary!
(To help you understand the photo: The sonographer did say that photos of the scan at this point in the pregnancy wouldn't be as great as the early ones because the baby has grown so much. The circumference of her head is roughly 37cm which means that her head is probably the size of a… Continue
Added by Susthama on January 7, 2012 at 13:30 —
With the euro debt and current global economic financial crisis, the price of gold and other precious metals are now at an all time high. It has got to the point where wearing gold has attracted unwanted attention - it is now advisable not to wear gold jewellery. How fitting then that Anna, an artist friend of Amida currently in residence at TBH has made Nembutsu rings to wear out of pieces of silver. She has made nembutsu rings for some of us at TBH, and has sent me a picture to show… Continue
Added by Susthama on November 7, 2011 at 12:30 —
It's been a while since I've written anything so it's hard to know where to start but the feeling of wanting to write and share some things is strong now. In a way, this feels like the start of a kind of pregnancy retreat. The pregnancy started about 5 and a half months ago but the retreat starts today as I investigate some of the feelings that are present.
In the beginning of the pregnancy I didn't even realise that a life was forming inside of me. The first month passed… Continue
Added by Susthama on November 3, 2011 at 12:30 —
Can anyone know the reasons behinds all the riots and looting, violence and unrest that have spread across the Uk for the 4th day in a row? Does anyone care to delve deep and look at how our society has become rife with violence and greed?
Is it really the youths that are responsible for this level of destruction and mahem that have taken root in many large and medium size cities across the UK? In many of the stories and images captured by the public and media it… Continue
Added by Susthama on August 10, 2011 at 19:00 —
I just found out that Sogyal Rinpoche's master's consort has recently died. Did it make a big splash in the Buddhist world? I wonder what her death was like?
I wonder who will be the next generation of Buddhist masters and teachers… Continue
Added by Susthama on June 8, 2011 at 10:30 —
In December, just after Christmas, Caroline fell on the ice and broke her vertebrae. A call to help was answered by Sumaya who went out there and spent almost a month nursing Caroline and taking care of the centre. She left a week ago to visit her family in the Czek Rep and now I am going out there to give a hand - and hopefully, all being well, Caroline will be able to withstand long car journeys. We shall see.
I'm now on my way.
The day before I left, I had… Continue
Added by Susthama on January 28, 2011 at 8:32 —
People are always coming and going - Amida is a mobile community with members and friends travelling to somewhere or coming back to share their news.
Love is forever going out to others and coming into our lives. At this time of year when the weather turns cold and dark love returns with warmth and laughter. It is the time leading up to the Bodhi Day that love demands and asks us to open our hearts to our friends, family and loved ones. It soothes our pain and comforts us in our… Continue
Added by Susthama on November 19, 2010 at 16:30 —
The weather has been all over the place. This morning I went out to put away some of the garden furniture that had blown down to the bottom of the garden and then noticed our sign that we've put out in front of the Continue
house for several years toppled over, upside down. It's been battered over the
years. The sign that welcomes people to the Buddhist house has a list of our
weekly activities and has acquired a large dent in the middle of one side. This was…
Added by Susthama on November 11, 2010 at 15:00 —
Losing ground and going higher
in London's eye we are on fire
lights explode in clouds unseen
lovers dream and fools retire
time slows down and silence fades
attention please his voice bades
for truth and love on this dark night
needs an answer to be made
eyes and mouths open wide
hearts and minds no need to hide
down he goes while reaching up
and asks the… Continue
Added by Susthama on November 6, 2010 at 11:30 —
I've been reading Buddhistm and Psychotherapy Across Cultures editted by Mark Unno and just wanted to share some of my reflections and feelings that I've experienced when reading some of the essays in his book. The chapters that have caught my attention are the ones primarily concerned with pastoral care and Shin Buddhism probably because it relates to my current situation. I have been working as a chaplain in psychiatric hospitals for almost a year - but before that I have been… Continue
Added by Susthama on October 23, 2010 at 12:04 —
Images and sacred texts: Buddhism across Asia
14 October 2010 – 3 April 2011, Room 91
Through sacred texts, painted scrolls and sculptures
from Sri Lanka to Japan, discover the shared
traditions of Buddhism – the ‘three gems’.
FREE RELATED DISPLAY
Agents of the Buddha: 17th-century
Japanese sculptures of Fugen and Monju
11 November 2010 – 9 January 2011, Room 3
Immerse yourself in this display of two lively
Added by Susthama on October 20, 2010 at 21:32 —
It feels like this is the year....the year that I go deeper in faith and love and broader in knowledge and experience. But despite knowing that I've gone further than before (even if it's going backwards rather than forward) and higher than ever (even if it's only 1 cm more because I've let my hair grow long) I still feel the same anxieties and fears sink their claws into my soft stomach, making me want to double over and never get up. Of course, this isn't a new feeling and of course, this… Continue
Added by Susthama on September 24, 2010 at 20:44 —
We howled last night. Stopped to see if any of the dogs in the area would return our calls. A few woofs from one dog but nothing like a howl as we would have liked...
What else do you expect three women sitting around a bonfire looking up at a full moon to do?
When we drove over to France we noticed the moon about 80% full and were excited at the prospect of being here (the retreat centre in Le Cher) when the moon was full. Little did we know what the weather conditions would… Continue
Added by Susthama on September 23, 2010 at 11:41 —
Researching material for my assignment is slow going. The web is wonderful, the technology has never been better, and my laptop is a powerful machine but would anything work? Since arriving in La Belle France my computer has been doing some very funny things. It started beeping at me, for no reason at all, and then when I typed something and then pressed the back space key to delete a typo it would delete everything and then stop. When I tried to undo what had been done by pressing ctrl z… Continue
Added by Susthama on September 21, 2010 at 21:00 —
The chutney is nearly finished. I've got the jars sterilised and can't wait to start decanting the mixture into them. In between stirring I go to the office and continue my search for articles on professional healthcare chaplaincy. I then sit and reflect on my situation and think that the process of making chutney is a good analogy to use to describe my spiritual journey thus far.
I don't feel nearly finished though.
I feel like I'm boiling and bubbling away. A… Continue
Added by Susthama on September 20, 2010 at 13:33 —
Caroline and I have just returned from a delightful trip to Wales. We spent time visiting friends and members in Aberystwyth, Machynlleth, and Lampeter. Caroline ran a workshop on being present with each other, and then led a Pureland service in Hussam's lovely shrine room and finished with a talk on the subject of Guilt while I got the benefit of her talks and the compassion of group members.
And what did I offer in return? As I sit and reflect on the second question in our Nei Quan… Continue
Added by Susthama on May 13, 2010 at 19:15 —
I seem to be having a very small dilemma. Do I post this blog here or on my Beyond the Clouds blog on Opera? In a way, this can be resolved by writing one here and then a slightly different one there, so there is a way around this and for now what is more important is to write a blog post.
It feels like it's been a long time since I've written anything reflective about what has been going on or how things have been. I've missed that in a way but wouldn't turn the clocks back just to… Continue
Added by Susthama on March 14, 2010 at 14:30 —
On Saturday, Antoinette, Gordon and Perry led Liz and myself through a ceremony to bless and celebrate the fact that they successfully completed the Buddhist Psychology Advanced Certificate programme.
The ceremony was held in the middle of a large stone circle in Avebury which happened to be in the back garden that belonged to their friend Gordon who is also a Wicken Priest. We dawned our caps and gowns :) for this celebration with and in the elements and were first cleansed with… Continue
Added by Susthama on November 16, 2009 at 16:00 —
As a bombu Buddhist, I have attained nothing that will get me closer to supreme awakening. How can I? I am an ordinary earthly being, proud of so many things and pathetic in so many other ways that compound karmic consequences exponentially. What does all this mean anyway? Where would I be now if I had entered the stream and had a modicum of spiritual accomplishment?
To appreciate and value others is what I've learned from other members of my sangha. Sometimes, it can be hard for… Continue
Added by Susthama on October 5, 2009 at 9:30 —
Reading Clark Strand's book together with listening to the recent lectures given in France has been an inspiring experience.
I've not finished reading all of the chapters yet, I find that I am taking delight in reading a chapter and spending time thinking about it while I do something else and then going back over one or two of the pages from an earlier chapter as questions and ideas form in my mind. I've also been very grateful to Strand himself for taking time to answer a couple of… Continue
Added by Susthama on July 25, 2009 at 12:30 —